unappreciated

You know, I do a lot for my husband. I clean the clothes I take care of his dog. He can not have salt and I now cook without it for him.  Now trust me if he can’t have salt I don’t want him t o have it. But I honestly feel like he doesn’t appreciate what I do.  I honestly don’t think that he has a lot of respect for me.  Some of the reason that is bc I bite my tongue a lot. I don’t say how I feel or I don’t call him on getting smart or disrespecting me.  Saturday I was washing the spreads on the bed and he called me looking for the one purchased when we first moved in. I told him I did not have a clue where it  was, I had been looking for it too. Then he goes in to I have taken it out the house and now I can’t remember where I put it.  So then I thought for a second that was the case. I do have an issue with my memory bc of my MS.  I said I will replace it. He told me I don’t have any money to replace it and was 150.00.  I felt really bad. The next day I go outside to feed the dog and look in the shed and what do I see? The 150.00 comforter that meant so much.  Yes, he puts it in the shed with lawn mower.  Do you think he apologized? Not at all he didn’t say one word.  I’m trying to keep my cool but at the same time I am steaming.  He can make me feel so bad and it doesn’t even bother him.  I take care of most things for our child.  He doesn’t clean up. I pay all the inside bills and I even pay for all of the  pay-perview fights that he orders and his friends come over. How do I handle this before I start to lose love for him?

am i wrong?

This weeked it snowed really bad and my husband had to go to work. I was at home but there was a chance that I might get called in, so my husband took his car and I had my truck. The next day my husband said that I should have asked him did he want to drive the truck. Well I didnt ask him bc he said that his dad was coming to get him. My thing is this if he wanted to drive my truck all he had to do is ask. He said that I was selfish. I dont think so bc he should have told me earlier that he wanted to drive my truck, or he shouldnt have told me that his dad was coming to get him. Marriage is very hard. Now that I am married nothing is my own anymore. My laptop is for everybody and I got it for personal use.  I just want something of my own. I want something that I can do what I want when I want with it. Something that stay the way I leave it. I am far from selfish bc I am always doing something for the family. I dont spend any of my money on my self. it is always food for the house, food for the dog or some type of bill. But if you let my husband tell it I’m selfish and whats mine is mine.  I’m tired of giving everything that I have and get nothing in return. I need some relief. Am I wrong?

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